Wishin' and Hopin' and Thinkin' and Prayin'...

One week until I get my LSAT score! In the last two weeks, my feelings have swung from the depths of dismay all the way up to hopeful optimism and back again. Today I took a tour of the school I hope to attend in the fall and was so excited I nearly broke into a song and dance. (Don't worry, I didn't ;)) But I DID leave the campus feeling exhilarated, excited and confident that I am moving in the right direction..following my passion as I should have done all along. YAY!

I keep checking the LSAC website as if my score will miraculously post a week early. I really expected this to be an easy wait but my.god.it.is.terrible. To make matters even more difficult, my well meaning husband has been telling anyone and everyone that I have taken the LSAT...which is fine when it's close friends and I have some sort of heads-up that they know. But, he's told random people. The new next door neighbor just asked about it yesterday and completely caught me off guard..asking if I plan to quit my job etc.. My husband thinks I'm being ridiculous and that everyone is pulling for me, but seriously..the more people he shares it with, the more pressure I feel as a result. And he doesn't understand. I get it that he's proud of me and is my biggest fan, but holy hell let me figure out my score before you auto-admit me into Harvard!
(No, Harvard isn't on the list, btw. I have a house and a mortgage to take care of within the confines of the California state lines.)

Either way, here's to hoping for a great score - or at least one that will get me into my school of choice! I would love to bury my LSAT books forever!!!!

A little bit about ME

I thought it would be a good idea to give a little bit of the back story on me. You already know that I am the mother of two boys. One is 9 and the other is nearly 2. I had my first son during college - quite the unexpected surprise. I somehow figured out how to finish my degree in four years while raising a son - and even got married during my last year of school. After I graduated, I took a job in Corporate America and steadily moved up the ladder over the last five years there. The problem? I am not at all passionate about what I do or what the company does as a whole. I had always wanted to go to law school but somewhere in between graduating, getting a job and buying a new house - I thought those dreams were unrealistic.

Before I had my toddler, I was actually pregnant with another baby boy - that I carried to full term without any problems. Tragically, he died days after he was born due to breathing issues. I was absolutely devastated. Surprisingly, I went on to have my third son (the toddler now here) almost a year to the date that I lost my second baby. God works in very mysterious ways. I hadn't planned on getting pregnant again - but I am so very glad that it worked out the way that it has. The loss of my son has forced me to re-evaluate my life and has drastically changed my perspective. Those dreams I had of becoming a lawyer? I've dusted them off and have decided to just go for it. I realize how short our days on this earth are - and I want to honor the memory of my son by choosing to make a difference and chase my passion. I hope to teach my sons here that no tragedy should break you - and that life is too short to just get by doing something you hate. I don't want to waste another day, I am going for it.